Thursday, December 18, 2008

Unsent - Alanis Morissette

Unsent - Alanis Morisette

Dear Matthew
I like you a lot
I realize you're in a relationship with someone right now and I
respect that
I would like you to know that if you're ever single in the future
and want to come visit me in California I would be open to spending
time with you
and finding out how old you were when you wrote your first song
Dear Jonathan
I liked you too much
I used to be attracted to boys who would lie to me and think solely
about themselves
and you were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time
I used to say the more tragic the better the truth is whenever I think
of the early 90's
you face comes up with a vengeance like it was yesterday
Dear Terrance
I love you muchly
you've been nothing but open hearted and emotionally available and
supportive
and
nurturing and consummately there for me I kept drawing you in and
pushing you
away
I remember how beautiful it was to fall asleep on your couch and cry
in front
of you for the first time
you were the best platform from which to jump beyond myself what was
wrong with
me
Dear Marcus
You rocked my world
you had a charismatic way about you with the women and
you got me seriously thinking about spirituality and you wouldn't let
me get
away with kicking me own ass
but I would never really feel relaxed and looked out for around you
though
and that stopped us from going any further than we did
and it's kinda too bad because we could've had much more fun
Dear Lou
We learned so much
I realize we won't be able to talk for some time and I understand that
as I do
you
the long distance thing was the hardest and we did as well as we could
we were together during a very tumultuous time in our lives
I will always have your back and be curious about you about your
career your
whereabouts


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lagu untuk bekas bekas kekasih **itupun kalau ada..**

kebetulan semalam, masa tengah godek godek youtube, teringat pulak dengan Alanis. dah lama tak dengar lagu lagu dia kat radio.

aku tak adalah ramai sangat bekas bekas ni. bila difikirkan semula dalam dalam, rasanya memang tak ada langsung. kenapa tak ada? sebab bagi aku, kalau mereka benar benar bekas kekasih, sudah pasti bila teringat, akan hadir rasa rindu ataupun sedih, ataupun mungkin masih ada sisa sisa sayang, tapi ni tak ada langsung. kosong, zero, nil, empty, puchik...

tapi, nak kata dulu dulu tu aku tak pernah intim dengan mana mana lelaki, pun satu penipuan besar jugak rasanya. mereka pernah ada, pernah jugalah buat hari aku ceria, tapi tak seceria hari hari aku bersama yang sekarang ni, yang sekarang ni, he's the best in the world.

sekejap, bagi aku kira berapa bekas yang aku ada. satu, dua, lima, sepuluh.., eh, tak.., 2 sahaja. yang lain lain hanyalah fling, datang dan pergi bagaikan deruan angin yang singgah sebab nak bagi aku dingin saja. tak kekal dan tak pernah menyesal. biar dorang hilang tanpa kesan pun tak apa.



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